There’s no greater freedom than facing your own death. I practiced crossing that threshold during a ceremonial experience with the world’s most powerful psychedelic drug, 5-MeO-DMT.
This is not a party drug, and bears no resemblance to the ‘DMT’ you may have heard of. Rather, 5-MeO is a chemical produced in our bodies. It’s likely released by the brain to help transition into, and out of, this life.
It’s aptly nicknamed The God Molecule. Essentially, it gives us the opportunity to experience death.
A few years ago I embarked on a dance with the God Molecule. I was fairly nervous, not being someone who likes to feel out of control. No ‘bad trips’ for me, thank you very much. And it’s gotten plenty of bad press, so I had reason to be wary. But this medicine called to me from the first moment I heard about it, and I had the opportunity to experience it during a ceremoniously guided retreat. I was willing to take the risk of jumping into the unknown and experience facing my own death, come what may.
Leading up to the retreat, I set a clear intention for what I wanted to get out of this:
1. I wanted to know the truth of who I am, and
2. if it wasn’t asking too much, I’d love to meet my ‘creations.’
I’m a long time student of A Course in Miracles, and within the text, there are many references to our creations. It says our creations are missing us, they’re waiting for us while we complete our time here in this world. I’m seriously fascinated by this. WHAT are these creations? WHERE are they? So I thought, perhaps if I was really lucky, I might get some insight on these creations. I wasn’t disappointed.
Having taken the strongest dose, I immediately found myself in the most gorgeous, precious black space. This rich velvety black cannot be seen by the human eye. I can assure you, I would’ve been happy to never return. Then, living beings of light began to approach me. Floating in this incredible black, there were these beings of dancing light. They moved the way light moves on the surface of water. I have never in my life felt so much joy and love. They were so happy to see me! I recall telling everyone in the group, ‘I’M MEETING MY CREATIONS!’ I cannot possibly describe how much love I felt. It was the definitive highlight of my life.
It was over much too quickly. Later that night I couldn’t sleep, so I opened my Course in Miracles (randomly, as I usually do) to a passage I’d never read before:
“The Father keeps what He created safe. You cannot touch it with the false ideas you made, because it was created not by you. Let not your foolish fancies frighten you. What is immortal cannot be attacked; what is but temporal has no effect… Whatever is perceived as means for truth shares in its holiness, and rests in light as safely as itself. Nor will that light go out when it is gone. Its holy purpose gave it immortality, setting another light in Heaven, where your creations recognize a gift from you, a sign that you have not forgotten them.” -ACIM
My creations had come to see me that day, and life would never be the same. I look forward to meeting them again and feeling all that sparkly, joy-filled love. I can honestly tell you I am NOT afraid to die.
Fast forward 3 years, and I needed a name for my Ministry. Looking to my Course in Miracles text for inspiration, I opened it to read, “Only the creations of light are real.”
So that was it. Creations of Light Ministries.
And now you know…the rest of the story 😉